Can i keep control of my eating habits while having an adventure of a lifetime.
I’ve been following a certain diet plan for about five years now, I’ve lost over 10 stone and as i gained so much more confidence and my passion for traveling has grown and grown. The time i spent before my weight loss (25 years) is a time I feel like I’ve wasted tons of opportunities to explore the world, so many possibilities down the drain because I didn’t have the confidence to get out of my self destructing bubble.
Self-deprecating, self-abusing, self-harming with food for way too long, people told me obviously, school as you can imagine was a nightmare but still, I consumed food like it was the only cure for my sadness.
Sweets is a particular problem of mine, backed goods being my Achilles heal
I can now look back through various therapy’s that the main reason for my destructive behavior started with dyslexia being undiagnosed as a small child. It made me feel so alienated as a child and i still feel it now at times, the feeling of thinking your so dumb because you have a problem with spelling, reading and writing.
Unfortunately once the unhealthy cycle is established ….. feel dumb and humiliated…….eat something that temporarily makes you happy……..rinse and repeat.
Only those who suffer from the same alement will understand, this process and it’s not one you know about until things are way out of control but making the commitment to change is the first step.
I’m kinda an old pro at this diet plan now, i found the books helpfully of course but it was the real life help, understanding and support from the Facebook JCLS that gave me the encouragement, the new recipes and hearing from the other people going through the same struggle then you which i still find is the most helpful tool. I’ve roughly been the same weight for about 2 years and although I’m not skinny, i’m happy enough with the conference i’ve gained. but and its a big but (sorry i had to giggle) my biggest fear now is cant i stick to it when i’m traveling away from home over the next 15 months???
I suppose only time will tell and i certainly know a lot more about food then i ever did before but i also know i want to embrace the culture of the places i visit, i want to eat a Cornish pasty in Cornwall and i want to eat all the local delicacies in every place i visit but how can i when its not too plan!
Bare with me a moment……..
Sorry its ridiculous that this even makes me sad a little, thinking i might miss out but i can see so much of my hard work going out the window due to me indulging too much.
But then, there are those that say “you have someone who loves you for you, so indulge a little” hmmmmm lee may love me regardless, but I might not love me at a bigger size.
Arrr the uncertainty, deep breath miss T, deep breath…
I can and will do my very best to make the best choices for me, if i fall off the wagon, i’ll brush myself off and get back on it. A lesson we dieters know all to well at times. Live for the moment i say, one small bite at a time. Lol
I’m sure i’ll talk more about this subject again, especially food!!
But for now were in the UK, cooking the majority of the meals ourselves and only time will tell about the forth coming journey.
Check back soon.